But this was not an ordinary wound.
“I don’t know how to be anything else right now,” I admitted.
Kenneth’s expression softened. “Then be exactly that until you can be something else.”
The elevator doors opened.
Connor stepped inside without looking back.
Melinda paused.
For one fragile second, she and I stood facing each other with Elliot between us.
“I’ll send everything,” she whispered.
I nodded.
“And Kirsten?”
I waited.
“He laughs like you.”
The sentence struck me in a place no legal filing could reach.
Melinda’s eyes filled again.
“I didn’t understand why at first,” she said. “He has this little half laugh, like he’s trying not to smile too much. Connor said I was imagining it.”
I could not speak.
The elevator doors began to close.
Connor reached out impatiently and pressed the button.
Melinda stepped inside.
Elliot looked over her shoulder at me, wide-eyed and solemn, his stuffed giraffe tucked under one arm.
Then the doors shut.
I stood there long after they were gone.
That evening, rain started just as my shift ended.
It came down in fine silver lines against the hospital windows, turning the parking lot lights blurry and soft. I sat in my office with the door closed, still wearing my lab coat, the filing summary spread across my desk.
I had treated four patients after Connor left.
A toddler with asthma.
A six-year-old with a stubborn fever.
A teenager recovering from appendicitis who wanted to know if his scar would look “cool.”
A newborn whose mother cried from exhaustion and relief when I told her the test results were normal.
I had spoken gently. Listened carefully. Washed my hands between rooms. Smiled when needed.
No one knew that beneath my calm voice, one sentence kept repeating.
He laughs like you.
At 7:14 p.m., Kenneth arrived with two coffees and the expression of a man who had more bad news but was trying to deliver it in manageable portions.
“You shouldn’t have caffeine this late,” I said.
“You shouldn’t be reading legal filings alone in your office,” he replied.
I accepted the coffee.
He sat across from me.
For a while, neither of us spoke.
Rain ticked against the window.
Finally, I said, “How long have you suspected?”
Kenneth exhaled. “The financial issue? Months. The embryo release? Only recently. The connection to the child became plausible this morning.”
“Plausible.”
“I won’t use stronger language until testing confirms it.”
“Attorney language.”
“Protective language.”
I leaned back, exhausted. “What happens if it’s true?”
He folded his hands. “Then we deal with a difficult legal and emotional situation very carefully.”
“That sounds like something you say when the actual answer is terrible.”
