I Came Home From Buying Gifts for My Mistress

I saw her car through the front window.

Red convertible.

Too bright for the street.

Too bright for the day.

She stepped out wearing sunglasses, heels, and the cream coat I had once told her made her look expensive.

I didn’t open the door when she knocked.

“Trevor,” she called. “I know you’re home.”

I stayed in the living room, motionless.

She knocked again.

Then louder.

Finally, I opened it.

Her eyes moved past me into the empty house.

“Wow,” she said. “She really cleaned you out.”

“Leave.”

Her eyebrows lifted. “Excuse me?”

“I said leave.”

She removed her sunglasses slowly. “You don’t mean that.”

“I do.”

“You’re upset.”

“Yes.”

“So don’t take it out on me.”

I laughed once, dry and empty. “Who should I take it out on?”

“Her,” Vanessa snapped. “She took your child.”

“She took Grace somewhere safe.”

“Safe from what? You?”

I didn’t answer.

Vanessa stepped closer. “Trevor, look at me. She is punishing you. That’s all this is.”

“No,” I said. “She’s protecting herself.”

“And now you’re defending her.”

“She’s my wife.”

“She was your wife yesterday too.”

The sentence struck true, and she knew it.

Her face softened. She reached for my hand.

“Baby, listen. This is scary right now, but it’s also an opportunity. You and me don’t have to hide anymore.”

I looked at her hand on mine.

Perfect nails.

Gold bracelet.

No wedding ring line.

No hospital gown.

No sleepless nights.

No crying baby against her chest at 2 a.m.

I pulled away.

“I don’t want this.”

Her expression changed.

“What?”

“I don’t want us.”

“You’re panicking.”

“No. I’m finally not.”

Her mouth opened slightly.

I had never seen Vanessa speechless before.

Then her face hardened into something sharp and unfamiliar.

“You think you can just end this?”

“Yes.”

“You think you can use me for months, tell me you love me, promise me a future, and then throw me away because your wife embarrassed you?”

“I lied to you too,” I said quietly.

She stared.

“I lied when I said I’d leave Hannah. I lied when I said our life would be better. I lied because I wanted both.”

Vanessa’s eyes narrowed. “You coward.”

“Yes.”